Monday, August 27, 2012

Here, Now

I just finished rereading the introduction on my blogpage. The last line had me wondering. Maybe not exactly wondering, but contemeplating. I may be a reluctant blogger, but I am an avid contemplator. This is one of the reasons why I still agree with the statement, even though I have quite a time coming up with blogs which I feel are worth someone else's time to read.

I never seem to get far away from commitment and persistence, and in writing this I have come to realize how closely the reluctance and commitment are related, and how important both are as well.

This seems to be the case in all things for me, not just my writing. My reluctance to do certain things leads me to a desire for something that I am unaware of until its lack sends me into a deep desire. In other words the reluctance is an essential need which will ultimately provide the passion with which I do certain things. When I reach a certain point, still clinging to the reluctance, the cerebral part of the commitment forces me to put one foot in front of the other and after a step or two the passion takes over. 

I missed keeping my once a week commitment by two days, but I did have most of this blog saved in draft, consequently keeping my other commitment to quality, as I found some grammatical and spelling errors and added some pertinent material.

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Keeping in mind the name I chose for my blog, along with some of my usual themes which in some way, shape, or form always include commitment, I decided to write about  my "reluctance," after looking out the window pondering on it. 

I think my original resistance to blogging is a simple parallel to my introverted qualities and lingering initial antisocial attitude. Having broken those barriers the continuing resistance is due more to outside circumstances like time, working conditions, internet availability and such. Granted, blogging is still the least inspirational thing I do, but with persistence - you knew it was coming - I am confident the passion will be there when its time has come.

Saturday, August 11, 2012

Two Sides of Every Coin

I don't know that I have enough time at present to put the "umph" I feel I should put into this subject. Commitment is everything for me, so I was once again dismayed to find another week gone by, without an extra post. With that in mind I set out to write. A topic which seems to keep popping up is the irony involved with practically everything in my life. The most important revelation regarding this is my positive attitude regarding many negative things of my current life circumstances.

It looks as if I will have a steadier home base and internet source by Wednesday, so hopefully I will be able to be a tad more consistent with my on-line postings.

When I am able to view the difficulties and obstacles of my life circumstances as more fodder for my writing, the ideas and emotion as well as the experiences themselves, my attitude is light and I am able to write freely. It's just that sometimes I become aggravated when these temporary trials keep me from what I see as being able to move on, missing opportunities to further my career.

As of late, I have realized the extreme degree to which I can remain patient; it's this same degree of patience that "flips," and bites back, causing my aggravation when I miss some type of deadline. The simple knowledge of this keeps that lightness close at hand, keeps my attitude positive if I am willing to allow it to do so. 

In trying to lead into a good closing, I am aware of having much more to say. I need to maintain the commitment so I don't have the option to save now, add more tomorrow and then post. It might work, but experience shows me I would probably find myself wondering sometime next week (or later) what happened to my commitment? Sacrifices are necessary; on the flipside of sacrifice is progress.

Saturday, August 4, 2012

More on Commitment, and Self

If you are reading this, and you find it worthy of your time, that's a bonus for me. My single reason for this post, today, is to be able to say I kept a commitment -  no matter how minimal, no matter how entertaining. I only want to adhere to a standard of mine, another commitment - to write it as accurately and with as much skill as possible.

It will be short - too short for my original purpose, but that doesn't matter. The gist of my blog commitment is for me to make sure I DO it, at least once a week, with a "quality over quantity" attitude.

Thanks. I hope it was as good for you as it was for me.